The Fear Continues (I'm crazy)
Tomorrow I go back to work (sigh ... shudder).
I am somewhat apprehensive. Now that I know I have ADD and have seen the way it has wreaked havok with the way I present myself on the job (looking like a total effing idiot) I am fearful that:
1) the meds will not work and I will still have to experience myself as frightened and stupid;
2) all the different meds and combinations won't work on me and I will still have to experience myself as frightened and stupid;
3) after none of the medications work we will discover I do NOT have ADD and that .... I am just frightened because I am stupid.
Oh, I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared.
But, tomorrow at 8:15am, it's off I go ........
Knowing that I will later be blogging on my Monday June 4, 2007 work experience gives me some small comfort. I can take my entire vox neighborhood with me in spirit!
I am somewhat apprehensive. Now that I know I have ADD and have seen the way it has wreaked havok with the way I present myself on the job (looking like a total effing idiot) I am fearful that:
1) the meds will not work and I will still have to experience myself as frightened and stupid;
2) all the different meds and combinations won't work on me and I will still have to experience myself as frightened and stupid;
3) after none of the medications work we will discover I do NOT have ADD and that .... I am just frightened because I am stupid.
Oh, I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared.
But, tomorrow at 8:15am, it's off I go ........
Knowing that I will later be blogging on my Monday June 4, 2007 work experience gives me some small comfort. I can take my entire vox neighborhood with me in spirit!
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You're not crazy -- you just need to give the meds time to work, and you need to give yourself time to find ways to deal with things in your own way, in a way that will make sense for you. And you need to relax (great advice from the Anxiety Queen herself, but...)
Hope your day's going good for you, cat butt --- I am just now beginning to be able to check out my email and vox and all of that today --- work's been hectic so far all day.
Take a deep breath and relax --- it'll all be good.
Look at that sweet kittycatter...awwwww... &:o)